The Truth About Sacred Union…

The Parvati Myth:-
The Goddess of sacred union, devotional love. Her story derives from being an incarnate of a previous wife of the God Shiva. Shiva was in grief of the death of his wife and decided to meditate in a way that kept him in a state of being unable to be reached for ions of time, rendering him unable to fulfil his duties that were needed of him. So, it was decided to send down Parvati to awaken him from his meditation. Nothing she tried worked. He was not interested. She decided to devote herself to her own spiritual practice. Although she yearned so deeply for him, she chose to no longer be in suffering for him to come back and recognise her. It is said she meditated very often, she opened and moved her body to embody her flow, she stood on one leg in a running river…. Each day of inner devotion she did, her Shakti (energy) grew. Her inner flame grew so powerful that it erupted out of her in a glorious release of energy and continued to flow. This was felt by Shiva, who tested her devotion of him, and when her reply came in complete devotion, they embraced and began their gorgeous, glorious union- both whole and powerful and also choosing to merge together on occasions…. When they make love, the earth quakes, the trees receive and great healing light explodes around them- it is boundless, connected, wise and healing love.

When I was told many years ago, “You are a Parvati woman” by an astrology reader, I didn’t know what that meant. I knew something was missing from my life. Something was being yearned for- hidden somewhere deep within my psyche. Somewhere that wasn’t quite ready to be reached….

It wasn’t until I began diving deeply into the mystical truths years later through esoteric mystery schools, that I began to understand a smidge about what he was on about all those years ago. I had found my devotion, the fact that I innately knew that love was something not being represented in media, or in movies, or modelled by those who I saw as a couple…. At least in the way that I yearned it for myself…. The best way I can explain the inner knowing was that this was God somehow, but in union between two people, or in union within Self if not in relationship. It is a verb, not a noun. It is purity. It is grace. It is the great awakener. It cannot be contained within conditions of owning, of possessing, of having… and yet somehow can be…. It is enticing, it’s a riddle for the mind that can never be solved… It is to be surrendered to, and with every fibre of your being- yearned for.

This yearning for union with something so potent that it can fry your system if you do not have a guide, or are doing practices to support this deep and devotional voyage, and/or have tools to drop below or above the ego when it rises to be able to stay with your inner alignment. A balance between the two energies within (feminine and masculine) is needed to be able to come together within Self or with other in devotional, juicy, deep sacred union. It’s a huge journey. One where you will be constantly reminded by events that happen that ‘I know nothing’. Humbleness is key, we never can determine the outcome of such a quest as this.  For this sacred act is the un-manifest being born. It is a complete co-creation with the Universe, a letting go, a deepening into self being so present that there can be no return to the life you once lived. You cannot unlearn what you become…. and become you shall in this crazy journey should it be yearned for deep within your soul.

Sacred Union: What it is, Truly
You can read beautifully written articles on ‘whether your partner is a twin flame, or a soul mate’, you can read articles about runners and chasers within these contracts…. you can even read articles about how to draw one to you…. This is interesting on how crazy it can be on this path…. The mind actually takes over and becomes the Master- and the truth, the letting go, the being ok with the unknown takes the place of the servant. When the mind takes over it can make someone go into delusions…. into fantasy… fall back into conditioned expectations on how a relationship or inner awakening ‘should look’, and away from the truth that this energy holds, and if the control factor is released (which takes courage to trust in blind faith), it really is a magical divine dance with the Universe.

Interestingly, there isn’t much written about how it actually never (or rarely) aligns with your ego and what you think you want. The message that rings so potently in your ears when you come across a vibration so evenly matched with your own that it shakes up all of your systems at once and sends your energy off the richter scale for months and months…. heightens your senses and intuition…. and has nothing to do with romance (although it’s a nice idea, right)? The universe provides what your soul needs to learn in this partnership of sorts that is only a partnership in so far as it is aligned with soul growth. Life lessons of patience, of focusing on Self, of trusting the path, of opening despite ego wanting to protect yourself, of constantly choosing ‘love’ and divine mystical truths as opposed to fear and conditioning around what love is and what it should look like and all of the blocks to it. This is quite a steep slope to walk. If one or both are not ready or prepared with their own practices then the union will be completely ripped apart, not allowed to come together until or if there is alignment and wholeness within both parties…. Devotion of the self and your own soul path must be embodied before you can truly be devoted to another. Or at least be in the process of embodying this.

Now, this sounds cruel- keeping two souls apart who yearn sacred union- right? Wrong. This is potent, potent universal energy. If one or both are not in their power and alignment within themselves, then it can be a crazy, chaotic and powerful force very difficult to regulate within. Often this can lead to mental illnesses as the ego battles with being kept from the lover they want… as well as other physical ailments within the body.

A word of advice (from personal experience)- trust in the timing, always. If there are constant things in the way, then stay within your own practice, as Parvati did. Stay in your own alignment. You cannot control with the other is doing, however you can devote yourself to your own truth and prepare for the meeting should it occur with the same soul who you met, or with another aligned with you. Stay the course. Trust in the path. Let go. It is a delicate balance of yearning and self practice. The yearning is USED for the practice. Transmuted in the fire of sacred truth which burns away all that does not resonate with the sacred union of the highest vibration. Being at one and whole with Self is the practice. Continue this path if you are on it.

Burn baby, burn…..

All my love,
Elise

Art by Jah Ishka Lha

Your Passionate Servant (poem)

I wish I could make you feel
the light that I see in you
The light that I feel flooding through
my body, through trees….and everything…
The energy that wants you to stop
That wants you to feel and not think
That wants you to experience- not force.
Faith is a burning deeply within me
Tears form in the knowing we are one
I can’t convince anyone, but I can know it
In my bones, in my whole body, in my hair
In every single cell in my body….
There is more.
There.
Is.
More.
I’ve seen it. I’ve felt it. I’ve embodied it.
That which cannot be spoken… in concentration.

But every now and then you get glimpses of IT
In everyday life-
In your deja vu, or when you fall in love-
In that first precious ignition
That…. That- there IT is….

Know this:-
I serve one thing- IT-  the light in you and me
In everyone. That truth, that power, that grace, that love….
That perfectly balanced energy beyond the individual
But within each of us…..
So, I will be here. Loving, passionately devoting myself
To that…. all of that…. Nothing less…
No matter if you see it or not.
I will still continue…
I will still continue…
I will still continue…
Your passionate servant

Never Ever Alone (poem)

I yearn for the sweet, crisp wind blowing in my face,
The long dry grass tickling my legs,
The fresh flowers beautifying my gaze,
The scent of the flowers intoxicating my senses
I yearn for deep connected conversation
As I sprawl over pillows on the floor-
Relaxed and open and ignited by soul connection
With dear friends and truth filled words
I yearn for the fire to flare in my body 
To burn and dissolve all that I thought myself to be
To entrance me in my dance and my inner gaze
My movement and simultaneous stillness
In that space where there is no separation
Between what is perceived as opposites
Oh, going into the depths of ecstasy
Of opened surrender and movement, of dance…
Deliciously gyrating, and letting go, letting go, letting go…
I yearn to move with others in sacred ancient connection.
And simultaneously to be aware of my depth, witnessing and still.
For those of us who have touched such moments
Are changed forever and left parched dry
For the fluidity of another gathering,
being beautifully vulnerable, supported and
held in unconditional love and humbled in truth.
Traversing the realms and timelessness,
Embodying truth and living it in our lives.
Having a sense of belonging in this crazy world.
Connected, we rise and fall in the life we each lead…
But never, never are we ever alone. 

No more Resistance

I surrender, Oh I can no longer put up the walls before truth
Of love, of the ultimate connection
Of passionate embodiment, of laying alone,
Of being touched by that which cannot be explained
Of that which flows through my body,
Of that which I denied for lifetimes
Of that which no longer harbours denial.
No, take me beyond-
So far beyond that I am deeply, oh so deeply embedded within myself.
So that there is no separation
I gently,
quietly
humbly
surrender
Oh, use these hands to do your will,
Use my eyes to dwell upon what I must,
Use my heart as a doorway to you
Use my body for deep connection
Take me beyond the smallness
I may wish to keep or my own egotistical reasons
Take me beyond, far beyond.
Let my soul touch and be touched by you
Let me serve you within me and without me.
Let there be a sacred connection, a bond, a knowing
That can never be spoken, such is the truth.
Let me serve the unknown, rich and potent.
I am yours…..

Featured Art by Jeffrey Lohrius
Written by Elise Heyward

Love Beyond: Connection and Sacred Union

Love beyond everything. Love beyond what the word means to you. Love beyond all conformity and things you think are true. Love beyond your mind and body. Love beyond the gentlest summer evening kiss….Love beyond partnership and roles and responsibilities. Love beyond your Self. Love beyond…. just beyond….And you will taste the sweetest of tastes, smell the most fragrant of flowers…Be touched by the most purest of intentions, entering and connecting the heart and infusing with the rest of the body, seeping into the depths of your being…. Loving, simply loving beyond- in whatever form it presents whether energetic or in bodily incarnated form. Do not pine for this, nor lust for it. It already exists within- like diving into a cool pool on a summer day: Let it surround you, immerse you, hold you, nourish you, provide the opposite of your potent elements within. Let it seep into your very core. And when you think you cannot bare it. When there is a moments pause to come up for air…. that is when you surrender… surrender and lay atop of the vast depths of water- letting go of all that lies beneath, letting go of thoughts, letting go of past and future…Trusting the sacredness and love of being in this very moment- so present that the heart bursts open with rays of truth…. Once touched by sacred union, no conditioned love in life will do…

Featured art: Sacred Geometry Shop

I am Here, Trusting in Love Poem

How else can I send out this message any more

than to sit and feel my heart slowly and gently beat…

Tenderness flows through my veins, my voice rhythmic and tender

How else can I serve?-

But for the request of courage to keep my soft, sensitive heart

The way it is….

How else can I reflect to you?-

My utter devotion, my reverence and my embodied efforts

How else can I say to you?-

That I am yours to do with as you please?

How else can I confirm?-

My complete surrender to the grace?

When all I have are words that fall short

Time and again

And so here it is, with a gentle prayer in my human heart

With a hopeful thought in my mind

With my body devoted and open to union….

I am here, waiting, listening, devoting, honouring, loving….

I am here, ready, practicing and preparing…

I am here. I am here. I am here.

Always the lover, filled with faith.

Use me at your will.

Featured image by Viviane Fedieu Daniel

Choosing Love Over Fear in Every Moment

Today I was out walking my old dog. This dog of mine we adopted when she was 6 months old. She had been beaten, left for dead and had a deep fear of men and obvious trust issues. We could tell she had a beautiful soul, her eyes were kind despite all she had gone through. Her spine was showing out of malnutrition and I could tell she was simply happy to belong somewhere. We worked through her issues, and to tell you the truth I am still working with them today, sum 15 years later. Amazing to be walking every day with her still. She trusts people and rarely hackles. She is amazing with kids and she is great on the lead. The problem is with seeing other dogs. She usually hackles, growls and shakes, becomes anxious and aggressive at the same time. I have received training over the years to help but nothing seemed to work.

This morning, on my walk with her, we arrived at the huge yard of a big male dog who always enjoys to protect his yard. He is only doing his job at the fence line. Today I watched Jenta, my dog, tense up. I watched the hackles rise. And I breathed as I usually do, staying calm. This time, I reached out to her lovingly and patted her back. She stopped hackling and looked at me. Wanting more pats. So we walked passed the scary dog loving each other. That other dog could not get at her, could not make her afraid. She had something she considered better to put her attention on.

We again tested it on another famous fence line of Jenta’s and we did the same thing, again she chose to be with me over the fear. She trusted me enough to know there was no immediate threat and to focus on me. As I was walking, I contemplated this for a while. Hmmm… I love it when direct application of universal falls right in my lap. To choose love over fear. After watching my dog go through her process of hackling, anxiety, aggression to calm and love and even able to sit with her back to the perceived ‘threat’. Amazing!

Despite what has happened in our lives in the past. We can at any moment shift our attention to love and trust the unfolding of our path. Watching my dog walk with such confidence now is bloody rewarding.
I wish the same for you. To be able to choose hope and love where you can, and feel the benefits of this in your life when you do.

With so much love,
Elise