Never Ever Alone (poem)

I yearn for the sweet, crisp wind blowing in my face,
The long dry grass tickling my legs,
The fresh flowers beautifying my gaze,
The scent of the flowers intoxicating my senses
I yearn for deep connected conversation
As I sprawl over pillows on the floor-
Relaxed and open and ignited by soul connection
With dear friends and truth filled words
I yearn for the fire to flare in my body 
To burn and dissolve all that I thought myself to be
To entrance me in my dance and my inner gaze
My movement and simultaneous stillness
In that space where there is no separation
Between what is perceived as opposites
Oh, going into the depths of ecstasy
Of opened surrender and movement, of dance…
Deliciously gyrating, and letting go, letting go, letting go…
I yearn to move with others in sacred ancient connection.
And simultaneously to be aware of my depth, witnessing and still.
For those of us who have touched such moments
Are changed forever and left parched dry
For the fluidity of another gathering,
being beautifully vulnerable, supported and
held in unconditional love and humbled in truth.
Traversing the realms and timelessness,
Embodying truth and living it in our lives.
Having a sense of belonging in this crazy world.
Connected, we rise and fall in the life we each lead…
But never, never are we ever alone. 

Guided Meditation Playing Guitar

Hello!

This is a new, very new creative collaboration. I would love for you to join me with meditating and allowing music to be created in the process. This is the first of hopefully many! I enjoyed this so much.

Doing this has taught me that being vulnerable, just going with it when I don’t know the direction it will take, picking up the guitar because I had this overwhelming feel to pick it up and weaving it all together is so, so rewarding internally. Letting go of control, of perfectionism is just such a beautiful space to be in, and simply put, it creates more space for creativity to come through and be expressed.

Can you relate to this? Sometimes we need to just allow, jump in before you feel ready and give it a crack. From there refinement and learning can take place. Onward and upward, my friends!

It was a pleasure to play, to trust and to bring this to you.

Let’s connect, have fun, be open and trust ourselves.

With love,
Elise

Art by PLotulitStocker

Surrender, Open, Merge, Allow (poem)

Let go…. let go into the night sky
No different from the expanse of the ocean….
Somewhere between the two,
In the space where the ocean and sky meet
Is where we rebirth- you and me…
Floating with both above and below
The invitation on the swell of the ocean
And the touch of the gentle breeze
Both praying for the same thing:
They whisper in unison,
From above, and from below
Poised in timeless, weightless space:-

“surrender, open, merge, allow…

surrender, open, merge, allow…

surrender, open, merge, allow….”

For there is more than what you see
More than just making money,
Or upholding the norm….
More than the friends you have
or the family you’re from…
The sacred mysteries come,
Come knocking and inviting,
Patiently inquiring and merging
within the depths of your soul.
“Is there more?” You’ve asked yourself before
And to this the answer you shall have
when opened to explore…
Courage is to open, to feel to trust
In the path not revealed,
but rather constantly unravelling…
But oh, what an exciting life awaits
On the other side of fear and restrictions.
More than a mere temptation,
And more than you’ve been told exists….
It beckons and becomes too loud to ignore
It’s down to choice and a willingness to see
At how passionate, and full, and sweet life can really be…

Written by Elise Heyward
Art by Nari

The River and Her Divine Flow (poem)

The river has her banks filled to the brim
It skirts the rocks and land formations
She moves and turns….
Rises and flows…
As the banks attempt to contain her,
Holding firm as she caresses the sides,
Writhing, rising, gently massaging
Until the banks, firm and contained
Begin to crack and falter…
The foundations crumble
As the river claims her expanded form
Dancing, moving in her new found freedom
She tiptoes beyond her known contained river
And flows through the landscape…
Making love, being in sacred union
With the rocks and the deep caverns….
Life spills from her luscious flow
As the landscape surrenders to meet her…
Birthing lakes, creeks and ponds
Creating new life from this loving adventure.

Written by Elise Heyward

Art by Shelby Robbins

Grieving- Ways we can bring loving awareness

 
There is beauty in heart break. There are those moments when an allowing or surrendering to what is occurs. When surrendering to feelings happen… there is such grace and poise in the acknowledgement of emotions. It’s that picturesque moment to sit in truth, allowing the emotions to come through when tears stream down your face. There’s no where to turn except into the grief- be intimate with the grief. There are things to learn about Self here, always. Allow the emotions to swell, break the bank, do whatever is natural for them to get out of the body. Don’t hold onto them. And when the release is done, ask of it, “What do I need to learn here from you?” These questions don’t make the pain or hurt go away, nor should we turn away too soon in the grieving process. But the questions exist as a way to keep turning into Self and not outward. To keep on the soul path. Your soul path. Endings will occur- losses will come and go in life. Being able to feel it all and be so present, but also have a strong witness and feel for soul alignment is central for this path when we come across heart ache, or loss of some sort. Pay attention to stories attached to the emotions. Emotions come in waves, stories can make you feel something for a long time. Emotions are a part of the emotional body and are impermanent and stories are when the brain creates hell on earth for us. We lose presence when we allow our brain to conjure up things. There is a type of sacred union that doesn’t aid our soul journey, and that’s the sacred union between our emotions and brain.  
There are ways to grieve, like feeling, and allowing the natural cycle of the grieving process, learning truths about Self in this state. Sometimes grief will flow in all of a sudden and out again. This is something we CANNOT control! Perhaps that’s why as humans we tend to block or If we can stay present, we can learn a lot. This is consciously grieving, those on a spiritual path have a way of looking at their experiences to learn from them, as well as feel them. To know thyself deeper whilst hurting, this is like fertiliser – yes it’s poop, but it enriches us and deepens our courage and wisdom…. Another way is unconsciously grieving where we can create stories, project outwards at others in anger, stay as a victim therefore giving power away, subconsciously hurting others because the person grieving hasn’t grieved themselves, and re-entering painful life patterns. Behaviours of unconsciously grieving include numbing, avoidance, addiction, isolation, self sabotage. This can lead to depression and other mental illnesses.  
  
Grieving is a huge part of life and one that our society doesn’t do very well. It’s like there’s perhaps a fear that once a person starts crying they may not stop, or they don’t want to seem weak, or don’t want to make the other people feel uncomfortable. Whatever it is, emotions are a part of being human. It’s revolutionary to feel and express them. We aren’t machines, so why should we behave like them? Good questions to ask ourselves when we are grieving are:- 
  
 
What am I grieving?  
Is there are story?  
How can I surrender to this process?  
What do i need to support myself?  
Deleted: Am I spiritually by-passing (not being present to feeling the emotions)

Featured image by Fotodiale

Maturing and Tenderising on the Sacred Path

Maturing is a difficult thing to do on the spiritual path. It’s the meeting of the ‘real world’ relationships with your practices to connect with God/ universal energy…. It’s like sitting and marinating in your own juices. Man, is it easy to get out of that hot pot, or pressure cooker. We all have our ways to distract ourselves. But, to stay doesn’t just reveal willingness to be uncomfortable, to feel emotions, or to enter the unknown… no, maturity is the ability to feel all of those things mentioned, AND STAY for the truth underneath it all, not denying any of it. But, staying. Emotions will run, you will want to run… but staying is like remaining in the pressure cooker to become more tender than before. To become more open than before. To unravel the built up callous of the past and return to that soft, transparent, beautiful, radiant Self. The softer we are the more the light can enter us.

The softer we become in the pressure cooker, the more willingness we have to look at ourselves and the more wisdom we gain within. We know ourselves deeper. We have the courage to open, yet the wisdom to know where truth is and act upon it:- How truth feels, how truth looks, how truth becomes a knowing deeply within, how truth becomes wired deeply into your daily system. You know the ooozing energy of truth and the glimpses of it and oh, it’s the most beautifully ravishing thing witnessed in your life. AND you feel the feels of untruth, the stench of untruth, the taste of denial, the lies believed by an overactive mind… and the one that feels the worst is the heaviness and darkness of the lie you speak not just to yourself but outside of you. ouch. That one hits so hard, so hard. But, it’s human, and beautiful too. It can be transformed if you are willing to get into your own pressure cooker.

Practices with being gentle with yourself are vital with this. Being true to you first is so important. There is no forcing. When you are ready to see another layer of yourself the Universe will provide a beautiful scenario to play out. Lean into the process, surrender over the attempts to control it. A willingness to see thyself and any parts within that is needed for maturing. It’s a beautiful, humbling tenderising act, but very rewarding. In your own time. The maturing of each individual is very much left to divine timing. If we try to rush, what part of us is rushing?- ego. Trust in your divine path, know things are unravelling. You are doing fine. You are exactly where you need to be…

With so much love and reverence for your path,
Elise

Featured image by Ulysses Albert III