The Mountain to Cross

Sometimes it can feel like you would like someone else to just step up and make really hard life decisions for you. Sometimes, the truth underneath it all feels like a fear to take the wrong step, the wrong decision, the wrong path…. And so, it can seem like an eternity standing in one place, hearing the potent whispers of what is on the other side, but knowing there is a mountain to cross first.

What if there is no wrong step in life, and we’ve been fed a lie to strive for perfection, to figure out what we want and ‘go for it’, to ‘settle down’…..
But life…. life doesn’t run according to the rules in our own mind of how it should look. Perhaps life is meant to be humbling, meant to break us to feel our core, to let the light in, to allow love into every part of us, to have deeper relationships with ourselves and others…..

It’s all okay. To be still and not step is okay. To step in a direction is okay. To run in a direction is okay. It’s all going to be that mountain. Breathe. Stay with it, be in it, learn from it.

Each path you choose, whether stationary, slowly moving, or sprinting, will give the opportunities for the lessons your life will bring.
Be in the present….. Practice being in the present….. Allow the exploration and living to come. Trust yourself and your path. Enjoy your life. Change the things you can change, let go of the rest. Don’t waste time worrying. Practice being in the moment. The future really is the unknown. So live… Taste more, touch more, smell more, feel more, allow yourself to feel joy and happiness in the midst of chaos. This is your life.

All my love,
Elise

Let Go- Be Still and Feel it All (poem)

Floating yet grounded,
Being touched deeply within
Yet not at all
Beauty caresses and engulfs me
As I stand exactly where I am
In a time warp of entangled time
Tapping into desires unmet
Truth stabbing into my being
Like a long lost lover
From a long lost dream….
Twisting and turning,
Haunting me like a solo violin
Cutting through the thick air-
Of excitement, anticipation and fear….
A whisper echoes, traces of something
A scent left lingering
The energy felt
An inner stirring of a life once known
A deep remembering, a knowing
Rising to the surface
Wisdom speaks and says ‘be patient’
And so, I sit. I breathe this fire
Up and down and around my body
Igniting and fuelling every crevice
I am alone- yet intimately connected
Truth lies in timelessness-
In the gentle reminder
All will be revealed in time
Or perhaps not at all-
Let go:-
Be still, and feel….
Be still and feel…..
Be still and feel…..

Life: What Does it Mean to You?

Life. Love. Your world…. What does it mean to you? If you knew you had only a short period of time to live, how would you live life differently?- Would you live it differently? Would you be so concerned by what others thought of you? Would you somehow find a way to be more truthful? Would you alleviate those feelings of regret that lie deeply beneath the numbing, the busyness, the need to make more money, or have the perfect house/ boat/ or car? Would you possibly be more open to those things that scared you before, knowing your end is looming?

Seeing myself within my deathbed, as a reflection (as a meditation practice), looking over my life as it plays over in my mind, I can see all of the places which were not in truth so far. Things where I tried to ‘fit in’, or ‘belong’…. where I tried to impress others instead of being how I really wanted to be. Where I was running from myself and my own many truths I wouldn’t dare tell anyone else about in case I would not be accepted within my own family, friends and extended circles… so afraid of being the centre of gossip. Since doing this practice I have been able to see clearly my truths I once ran from- the powerful life exploding ones (that I’m in the middle of now) and the small seemingly inconsequential ones. I can open and share these things with my closest of friends. No one judged. They listened with openness. They helped me, wrapped me up in a warm blanket of support and supported me to be myself wherever I am, whatever the situation.

We all have something, no matter how minor it is, there are secrets within. Perhaps this path we call our life is to learn to accept our imperfection and little idiosyncrasies that make up our gorgeous authenticity, not to mention the energetic blueprints we all come in with as well (but that’s another blog). Oh, I have a vision of how each person who accepts themselves, ALL of themselves- is their own beacon of light, slightly different shape, or vibrancy or colour- but there it is, the acceptance of the wholeness, beautiful messiness of the human imperfect life within each of us. The bits we don’t like or wish to change, the parts of us that deny and judge others, wanting us to simply reclaim those parts that exists within us which were suppressed and we resist the rising of the surface of. If we look at things this way, perhaps the concept that we are all connected isn’t so difficult to comprehend?

Doing this deathbed practice has helped me to no longer run from the judgements I feared from others. I realised that I was the one leading this within my own head. I needed to accept all of me as it arose, whether it fitted in within societal norms or not.

Doing this deathbed practice has helped me to no longer run from the judgements I feared from others. I realised that I was the one leading this within my own head. I needed to accept all of me as it arose, whether it fitted in within societal norms or not. Whether things I chose to do with my life fitted in with my mentorship and previous training. Whether it aligned with the spiritual community’s expectations of me by even becoming a mainstream meditation teacher….There were so many things that needed to be let go, dissolved, seen and accepted by myself. It is divine timing now, that it is my turn to let go and step into what I am most aligned to do with my soul right now. And that’s letting everything go in my life that no longer resonates, that is no longer my truth. Letting go, despite others opinions. Letting go even though I can not see the road ahead clearly. Trusting and stepping. Trusting ands stepping. I don’t know about you, but I need to live aligned to what is most truthful for me. That is living and directs me which way to turn and when to step.

If you have things come to mind for you, this practice of visualising yourself close to death may help you, too. Now I see things that I ran from as trivial, as things that do not matter in the scheme of things. Add it to my life lessons so that I may share this with whomever. Who knows if this may help another?

The concept of time fascinates me…. do any of us truly know how much time we have left? That is the beauty of life- the unknown. No matter the money or job you have- death is the great equaliser and one that we run from. How do we know it isn’t a great release, beautiful and serene? We don’t. Imagine getting to the inevitable knowing with a soft, sweet smile, with the thought echoing within your mind you truly LIVED! You gave it a shot. You learnt heaps. You loved courageously. You surrendered to life and let it have its way with you. You allowed the energy within to tantalise you, to inspire you, to connect you more than you thought could have ever been possible. What an adventure…. Now it’s time to rest, brave one, rest in love and connection….

NB: this practice is intended to empower the individual rather than create anxiety. If facing the ultimate fear- death before physically dying, it can create the willingness to face things in life that pale in comparison.

All my love,
Elise.

Featured Image art by Tomasz Alen Kopera

As Deep and as High as You Want to Go….

You present yourself with gorgeous, deep roots-
Plump, pulsing with life and maze-like
Still within the package, clear and holding
You sit contained- unaware, naive…
I am entrusted to cut the end-
Pull you through and into this world
It’s as if you take your first breath….
Your roots entwine upon themselves
I gently, so gently massage them,
Patiently and lovingly sing you a song….
Until that moment of release and surrender-
And you are freed from your bonds.
Placed into the fertile soil.
Alone but lovingly adored.
There to grow as you wish,
As deep and as high as you want to go…

A Call to Grace: Open Your Heart, Warrior

There is something growing… an uncertainty along with a feeling of dissatisfaction that is welling from deep within the open hearts walking among us, and pouring like a tidal wave from the energetic realm into physical reality. It is more than emotion, more than mere intention, it is the merging of grace into our lives. A calling for a receptivity within us. What is this energy asking of you?- for me it is linked to the physical wellbeing of my body:-

1. Food: Wholefood diet

2. Exercise: Walking every day, work outs as well/ dancing

3. Meditate daily/ embodiment practices (masculine and feminine on the day I feel)

We are in this for the long haul. Accept that there is no perfection. Self love practices are huge. Covering internal and external wellness is a necessity. What you do for one (say the physical), also do for the other (inner wellness) with equal time. Love is the only worthy weapon against that which binds us, keeps us in ignorance and creates separation amongst us, as the saying goes; what is in one is in the whole…. So please, please, look after yourself and dedicate wellness, both inner and outer, daily to yourself.

The commitment to Self is all that is being asked. No longer are the days of ignorance to be the norm. The wave is flowing through all physical form, wanting to be expressed through you. Old trauma, pain, fears remain as the block to this flow. Perhaps there is something more that helps to make this remain a little longer?- Acceptance of all that is in our lives. We give power to that which we suppress or avoid within ourselves. Dare to stop running or denying our truth within and turn to face it. Open to the lessons there. Learn to love the parts you don’t like, look at them, sit with them, be present with them. These are your souls’ life lessons to bring into your consciousness and transform. No one said it would be easy, but it’s worth it. As you would a dear friend who cannot stop judging herself or himself. And yet, you don’t see what they judge to be a major problem, in fact, what one person judges, another person may love. You may even love this trait in your friend…or not love it but accept it and love your friend regardless. So the quest, if you dare to accept, is to sit with those parts within you that you have squished down, denied, or judged and bring them to the light. There is only one person who can set you free- and that’s yourself.

 

All my love,
Elise

Grieving- Ways we can bring loving awareness

 
There is beauty in heart break. There are those moments when an allowing or surrendering to what is occurs. When surrendering to feelings happen… there is such grace and poise in the acknowledgement of emotions. It’s that picturesque moment to sit in truth, allowing the emotions to come through when tears stream down your face. There’s no where to turn except into the grief- be intimate with the grief. There are things to learn about Self here, always. Allow the emotions to swell, break the bank, do whatever is natural for them to get out of the body. Don’t hold onto them. And when the release is done, ask of it, “What do I need to learn here from you?” These questions don’t make the pain or hurt go away, nor should we turn away too soon in the grieving process. But the questions exist as a way to keep turning into Self and not outward. To keep on the soul path. Your soul path. Endings will occur- losses will come and go in life. Being able to feel it all and be so present, but also have a strong witness and feel for soul alignment is central for this path when we come across heart ache, or loss of some sort. Pay attention to stories attached to the emotions. Emotions come in waves, stories can make you feel something for a long time. Emotions are a part of the emotional body and are impermanent and stories are when the brain creates hell on earth for us. We lose presence when we allow our brain to conjure up things. There is a type of sacred union that doesn’t aid our soul journey, and that’s the sacred union between our emotions and brain.  
There are ways to grieve, like feeling, and allowing the natural cycle of the grieving process, learning truths about Self in this state. Sometimes grief will flow in all of a sudden and out again. This is something we CANNOT control! Perhaps that’s why as humans we tend to block or If we can stay present, we can learn a lot. This is consciously grieving, those on a spiritual path have a way of looking at their experiences to learn from them, as well as feel them. To know thyself deeper whilst hurting, this is like fertiliser – yes it’s poop, but it enriches us and deepens our courage and wisdom…. Another way is unconsciously grieving where we can create stories, project outwards at others in anger, stay as a victim therefore giving power away, subconsciously hurting others because the person grieving hasn’t grieved themselves, and re-entering painful life patterns. Behaviours of unconsciously grieving include numbing, avoidance, addiction, isolation, self sabotage. This can lead to depression and other mental illnesses.  
  
Grieving is a huge part of life and one that our society doesn’t do very well. It’s like there’s perhaps a fear that once a person starts crying they may not stop, or they don’t want to seem weak, or don’t want to make the other people feel uncomfortable. Whatever it is, emotions are a part of being human. It’s revolutionary to feel and express them. We aren’t machines, so why should we behave like them? Good questions to ask ourselves when we are grieving are:- 
  
 
What am I grieving?  
Is there are story?  
How can I surrender to this process?  
What do i need to support myself?  
Deleted: Am I spiritually by-passing (not being present to feeling the emotions)

Featured image by Fotodiale

Maturing and Tenderising on the Sacred Path

Maturing is a difficult thing to do on the spiritual path. It’s the meeting of the ‘real world’ relationships with your practices to connect with God/ universal energy…. It’s like sitting and marinating in your own juices. Man, is it easy to get out of that hot pot, or pressure cooker. We all have our ways to distract ourselves. But, to stay doesn’t just reveal willingness to be uncomfortable, to feel emotions, or to enter the unknown… no, maturity is the ability to feel all of those things mentioned, AND STAY for the truth underneath it all, not denying any of it. But, staying. Emotions will run, you will want to run… but staying is like remaining in the pressure cooker to become more tender than before. To become more open than before. To unravel the built up callous of the past and return to that soft, transparent, beautiful, radiant Self. The softer we are the more the light can enter us.

The softer we become in the pressure cooker, the more willingness we have to look at ourselves and the more wisdom we gain within. We know ourselves deeper. We have the courage to open, yet the wisdom to know where truth is and act upon it:- How truth feels, how truth looks, how truth becomes a knowing deeply within, how truth becomes wired deeply into your daily system. You know the ooozing energy of truth and the glimpses of it and oh, it’s the most beautifully ravishing thing witnessed in your life. AND you feel the feels of untruth, the stench of untruth, the taste of denial, the lies believed by an overactive mind… and the one that feels the worst is the heaviness and darkness of the lie you speak not just to yourself but outside of you. ouch. That one hits so hard, so hard. But, it’s human, and beautiful too. It can be transformed if you are willing to get into your own pressure cooker.

Practices with being gentle with yourself are vital with this. Being true to you first is so important. There is no forcing. When you are ready to see another layer of yourself the Universe will provide a beautiful scenario to play out. Lean into the process, surrender over the attempts to control it. A willingness to see thyself and any parts within that is needed for maturing. It’s a beautiful, humbling tenderising act, but very rewarding. In your own time. The maturing of each individual is very much left to divine timing. If we try to rush, what part of us is rushing?- ego. Trust in your divine path, know things are unravelling. You are doing fine. You are exactly where you need to be…

With so much love and reverence for your path,
Elise

Featured image by Ulysses Albert III

For Now, I am my Own Lover

Oh, where is my muse? I whispered to myself. This is the first time I have been without a yearning for a specified other. No crush. No flirtation. No relationship. ‘Yourself’ whispered back my inner self. And so, I go on a quest deeply into myself so that there is no separation. I turn into myself with my yearning to unite, to merge, to become whole. I turn into myself and unleash my desires within me: I want to see all of my flaws, all of those things I hate about myself, all of those sticky unhealed wounds that still lay dormant not ready for exposure… I want to see my beauty, my bliss, my untethered ways: Let me see them, feel them, love them. Let me set it all free with love. Let me feel a thousand yes’s and the remaining timidity. Let me hear the screams of bliss and experience the pain of loneliness. Let me experience the blasting truth- vibrating out from my body and the agony of betrayal. Let me feel the mystical vibration of the All and the imperfection of humanness. I want it ALL. I am ready to have that relationship with myself. I am ready to commit to feeling my own energy as it rises and falls, explodes and lies dormant. No more turning my energy outwards. No. For now, I am my own Lover.

It is Time for a Re-Birth

When it has me on my knees, begging for mercy
When my life is completely ripped apart
When I have nothing left to cling to
There is nowhere left to look but within.
This is the beginning of the most beautiful love affair-
To meet myself in my yearning. To meet myself in my power-
My holding- my potent untamed virile sexual penetration
To meet myself in my grace, beauty, flow and softness….
In my surrendering, in my absolute opening to receive….
Where these two touch- that place between two opposites..
Oh, how this vibration within makes me surrender more,
Oh, how it ravages my body, dissolves my mind,
And connects me to the beautiful place beyond all of it.
Come… come with the desires of a thousand thoughts
And feel them dissolve away into nothing
Come…. come with a tightened body
And feel the union within relax all…
Come…. come with all of you
And feel more than one could ever imagine….
Come…. come step into the ancient fire
And become all of you.
It is time for a re-birth.

More… So Much More…

We find ourselves in a time of looking beyond…. beyond what we previously knew, what we previously could have even perceived or imagined. This is the beautiful beginning of the time when we are humbled, when we become aware of greater cycles beyond that which our personal short existence can tell us. We are entering the unknown both within us, and in the world that surrounds us. A world of timelessness. Of boundlessness. Of releasing. Of stepping into that which creates and maintains faith. Of true sacred union with the divine. This is being birthed now. This is the connection we have been disconnected from, the balance between energy, the mystical component- the divine merging with our bodies in sacred, holy union. Now as we walk this earth. Yes, we are entering the time of energy. And energy moves through everything. There is no boundary it cannot and will not cross. There is nothing it cannot and will not touch and create permanent change. Change- that which creates fear in the collective. Change IS the only constant in life, and yet we try to protect ourselves from it. And this is the start, only the start of that process. A random virus unseen to the human eye, so minute is it, has brought an outdated system of greed, manipulation, gross power and a focus of wealth as the main example of success to a holt. Priorities are shifting and our hearts are igniting again.

I live across the road from a childcare facility and I overheard two men who introduced each other so they clearly didn’t know each other, discussing openly about their income situation, the fact that neither had a job to go to. Both were not angry. They were talking for longer than half an hour, connecting in, knowing that they weren’t alone. It was beautiful. Two men who are usually too busy to drop off their kids and rush to work to even acknowledge each other previously has lead to openly discussing how they are doing and sharing their situations with each other. This is huge, and a bloody big step in healing the gaping wounds within our masculine energy on the planet. Time to surrender. Time to connect to the heart. Time to re-prioritise. Time to create a new and connected way to live which includes the divine masculine. Oh, yes. We are changed forever. It’s up to us to watch what our attention is focused on. Are you trying to get things back to the way they were? Or are you courageously attentive to your thoughts and energy as the world around us takes a new shape- bravely entering the unknown with child like curiosity? What are you co-creating? Fear? Or connection? Hope or hopelessness? Love or separation?

I enter this time and every minute with hope- that being present in the moment connected to my energy with the loving prayer to help calm others and lovingly support them during these changes IS energetically felt.

I have faith, absolute faith in the forming soul connection of each person having a huge impact on humanity.

To the shifting <3

With love,
Elise