I am already soaked through to the bone from tending my garden,
Tending to my weeds and exploring my inner plants…
I implore you to saturate me to my core
That I may feel my pulsing energy from within
So that I may be immersed in the glorious
Connection and reunion with you…
Again and again and again
Of this I will never get tired
Saturate me so that my marrow purifies
And opens to the blinding radiance
Splaying untruths out of me…
Let me whisper only prayers from my lips
Poised in the timeless moment, surrendered
With the passion of an alive body,
Opening, opening, opening to be saturated once more
Surround me, enter me, embrace me, love me-
For I am soaked through in the ever connecting light
Connection…. connection…. connection….. yes
Love…. deep, potent and infinite – It never left.
Featured Image by Leslie Ballweg
Sometimes we’ve had a spell of inspired flow, or action. It’s amazing when that happens. Something to keep in mind so that we don’t push ourselves to ‘stay with it’ when clearly we need to rest, is to firstly look at the way we are judging ourselves in this time. Is there a thought that says ‘I should be doing something?’ Because that is a conditioned thought that is needed to be broken in order to realise that looking after Self and caring is ‘doing’ something. It’s honouring the rest that your body and mind need. It’s being kind to yourself. It’s honouring the natural flow in your world. The stream may be trickling instead of flowing, which is fine, too. There must be a winter as well as a summer. Whatever it is, please honour whatever your body is yearning right now.
With so much love,
It is a misconception that the spiritual path is only for those who are ‘gifted’, those who are crystal children. Those who want to be like monks and live in caves. Those who do yoga. Those who meditate. Those who practice Reiki. Those who travel in the ethers. Let’s be serious. The spiritual path firstly is subjective to the individual. However, with that in mind, I would love to give a shout out to those who are at home, doing the best they can to be a decent human being. There is a beautiful simplicity in this. There is a double edged sword when we head out as a spiritual aspirant. Often it can lead us down the path of identification to be this way or that. And this is so perfect to find your way. But something to feel into is the forever undercurrent that exists beneath every group identification, or activity, or practice. That is truth. Openness. Finding one’s own way back to our soul or essence.
The undercurrent has felt more like a comfort blanket for me of late. I have chopped and changed path so dramatically that it feels the complete opposite of what I have been studying for almost four years straight quite intensively. These modalities, if I may call them that are so completely opposite that the universal laws are bringing them together, making me the centre. I watched myself fight this new and perfect path for myself. I felt myself resist. I could see when my ego went into complete fear that all I had learnt previously was for nothing. But, now. Now, I can feel when I allow myself to be completely absorbed by the passion and intensity that is my soul path and my union with it, that I am allowing myself to be soothed by the fact that in everything I have ever studied the intention behind it has never strayed. The intention to know truth. To know more about myself. To enter self mastery which is a forever school I am absolutely devoted to on a daily basis. So, there is never a wrong modality. Or a wrong teacher. Or a bad decision. It is my responsibility and my intention to focus on learning, feeling, staying true to me and my soul path. Knowing this has alleviated some of the self made anxiety that I was creating for myself.
So, I have surrendered over my suffering, my attempt to separate this study into right and wrong. Good and bad. What works and doesn’t work. And entered into a new contract to walk into anything I study with the intention to learn. For the study of Self and soul is the study of the mysteries and they come through in whatever way suits me and in whatever way is needed for the soul path at exactly the right time. The study of self is the belief in something more than simply being born, working, and dying. There is an essence, a flavour, a powerful pull that leads the aspirant down a spiralling path of trusting in both Self to interpret and act when it aligns in life, and in the mysteries and their interaction with me equally.
May we relax and deepen into our soul path. May we trust and have a light filled hope that burns so bright within us that it cannot be extinguished. May we inhabit the place we stand and be a presence that burns brightly here on earth.
All my love and hope,
Image by Lunamom58
We find ourselves in a time of looking beyond…. beyond what we previously knew, what we previously could have even perceived or imagined. This is the beautiful beginning of the time when we are humbled, when we become aware of greater cycles beyond that which our personal short existence can tell us. We are entering the unknown both within us, and in the world that surrounds us. A world of timelessness. Of boundlessness. Of releasing. Of stepping into that which creates and maintains faith. Of true sacred union with the divine. This is being birthed now. This is the connection we have been disconnected from, the balance between energy, the mystical component- the divine merging with our bodies in sacred, holy union. Now as we walk this earth. Yes, we are entering the time of energy. And energy moves through everything. There is no boundary it cannot and will not cross. There is nothing it cannot and will not touch and create permanent change. Change- that which creates fear in the collective. Change IS the only constant in life, and yet we try to protect ourselves from it. And this is the start, only the start of that process. A random virus unseen to the human eye, so minute is it, has brought an outdated system of greed, manipulation, gross power and a focus of wealth as the main example of success to a holt. Priorities are shifting and our hearts are igniting again.
I live across the road from a childcare facility and I overheard two men who introduced each other so they clearly didn’t know each other, discussing openly about their income situation, the fact that neither had a job to go to. Both were not angry. They were talking for longer than half an hour, connecting in, knowing that they weren’t alone. It was beautiful. Two men who are usually too busy to drop off their kids and rush to work to even acknowledge each other previously has lead to openly discussing how they are doing and sharing their situations with each other. This is huge, and a bloody big step in healing the gaping wounds within our masculine energy on the planet. Time to surrender. Time to connect to the heart. Time to re-prioritise. Time to create a new and connected way to live which includes the divine masculine. Oh, yes. We are changed forever. It’s up to us to watch what our attention is focused on. Are you trying to get things back to the way they were? Or are you courageously attentive to your thoughts and energy as the world around us takes a new shape- bravely entering the unknown with child like curiosity? What are you co-creating? Fear? Or connection? Hope or hopelessness? Love or separation?
I enter this time and every minute with hope- that being present in the moment connected to my energy with the loving prayer to help calm others and lovingly support them during these changes IS energetically felt.
I have faith, absolute faith in the forming soul connection of each person having a huge impact on humanity.
To the shifting <3
What a gift it is to be aware of our shadows, our parts of Self we feel we need to hide or suppress….
The call is here. Seek the answer within.
Do it with vigilance.
Do it with integrity.
Do it for yourself…..
This takes so much courage to see those areas of yourself you mightn’t want to see. We all have them.
This is not for the light of heart. To be able to change a ‘fault’, or a ‘shadow’ aspect of Self that you do not like into a gift or deep wisdom is powerful. But you will metaphorically bleed…
It goes directly into the area most people wish to avoid.
It goes directly into the deep wounds.
It goes deeply into the constraints we feel upon us- whether we know where they come from or not.
It asks the Warrior part within to walk directly into the shadow- only this time with no Armour. This time with nothing but openness, curiosity and a willingness for transformation to take place- however that looks….
What is the deal? Let’s look at finally being able to accept all aspects of us. Those bits we might fear to even look at within Self. That old adage we should choose ‘love’ over fear is so on the money it’s not funny. The ultimate courage requires us to love so openly that we risk our heart being broken by people, by situations, and life events…. The breaking of the heart happens so that we return to rawness, to our essential nature. To a sweet humbleness…. To truly feel in a world of ‘numbing out’. To be able to become sensitive enough to be in union with the divine, but still walk the line of balance with being a warrior for ourselves- ultimately being vigilant in upholding our integrity, our healthy boundaries, our balanced ego, our soul connection- staying vigilant with our center at all times- knowing what feels amazingly aligned and what doesn’t.
There’s a new world being birthed. What is needed is people prepared to dive deeply and courageously into their truths; The wounding we were born with, those we collect in life- and work with them! Turn them over… What’s underneath this shadow work? Treasure. Pure treasure…. Your key to knowing yourself. Your key to being a powerful person living in authenticity. Your key for stepping out of victimization, numbing out, blame, disconnect, and playing small….. Your vivacious life awaits.
Do you have the courage?
Art by Pat Erickson
Written by Elise Heyward
I give myself over….
If I am to feel in love in a moment,
A day, a month,
With a heart so open and vulnerable
Then let it be so
If I am to have my heart break and reform continuously
Then let it be so
If I am to let go of attachments- turning them over
Then let it be so
If I am to forgo conditioning of a lifetime
And the pain that brings
Then let it be so….
I give myself over ~
I give myself over ~
I give myself over ~
In love deeply with the mysteries
Which infuse my being so deeply-
So delicately, so tenderly…
Cradling and loving my fears…
With all the courage I can muster,
In this human fragility
In all of my imperfections…
Humbly, softly, and perhaps a little messily
To this path, to myself, to the divine
And to All it shall bring.…
Yes…. Just yes…
I just surrender…
Art credit: Freydon Rassouli ~ ‘Surrender’