Is it ‘Un Holy’ Poem (explicit Pluto channel)

Exposed for all to see
Truth cracks me open like an egg
The yoke of my heart ablaze
I am burning, burning, burning……..

Would it be ‘un holy’ to desire
Would it be ‘un holy’ to want to fuck?
Would it be ‘un holy’ to feel my skin standing up-
As if pleading for more of a delectable taste or touch…
Would it be ‘un holy’ to want to experience and explore in this world?
Would it be ‘un holy’ to actually live the life I wish to live?
Would it be ‘un holy’ to embody my desires, be truly aware of them?
Rather than to pretend they don’t exist and shove them back down again
This world can be so dry, so ‘pure’ in it’s piles of cowardice excrement
That the truth gets masked over
Gets watered down.
Get’s diluted so as to not shock, or alarm others,
To stay as a ‘good girl’.
To not ‘rock the boat’.
When truth rises to the surface, and it will….
When it detects the putrid stench of hiding
This is a time for raw, honest truth- or else it is in vain
And we fall back asleep again with a thousand woes.
To accept and surrender to who we really are,
What we really want,
Or to go on that path of finding out just what that is-
Without influence or conditioning placed upon us
Is perhaps the easiest translation of the ancient wisdom
Left for self realisation to know thyself intimately
And claim all parts left hidden in the shadows or underworld.

Featured sculpture by Goran Josic

Life: What Does it Mean to You?

Life. Love. Your world…. What does it mean to you? If you knew you had only a short period of time to live, how would you live life differently?- Would you live it differently? Would you be so concerned by what others thought of you? Would you somehow find a way to be more truthful? Would you alleviate those feelings of regret that lie deeply beneath the numbing, the busyness, the need to make more money, or have the perfect house/ boat/ or car? Would you possibly be more open to those things that scared you before, knowing your end is looming?

Seeing myself within my deathbed, as a reflection (as a meditation practice), looking over my life as it plays over in my mind, I can see all of the places which were not in truth so far. Things where I tried to ‘fit in’, or ‘belong’…. where I tried to impress others instead of being how I really wanted to be. Where I was running from myself and my own many truths I wouldn’t dare tell anyone else about in case I would not be accepted within my own family, friends and extended circles… so afraid of being the centre of gossip. Since doing this practice I have been able to see clearly my truths I once ran from- the powerful life exploding ones (that I’m in the middle of now) and the small seemingly inconsequential ones. I can open and share these things with my closest of friends. No one judged. They listened with openness. They helped me, wrapped me up in a warm blanket of support and supported me to be myself wherever I am, whatever the situation.

We all have something, no matter how minor it is, there are secrets within. Perhaps this path we call our life is to learn to accept our imperfection and little idiosyncrasies that make up our gorgeous authenticity, not to mention the energetic blueprints we all come in with as well (but that’s another blog). Oh, I have a vision of how each person who accepts themselves, ALL of themselves- is their own beacon of light, slightly different shape, or vibrancy or colour- but there it is, the acceptance of the wholeness, beautiful messiness of the human imperfect life within each of us. The bits we don’t like or wish to change, the parts of us that deny and judge others, wanting us to simply reclaim those parts that exists within us which were suppressed and we resist the rising of the surface of. If we look at things this way, perhaps the concept that we are all connected isn’t so difficult to comprehend?

Doing this deathbed practice has helped me to no longer run from the judgements I feared from others. I realised that I was the one leading this within my own head. I needed to accept all of me as it arose, whether it fitted in within societal norms or not.

Doing this deathbed practice has helped me to no longer run from the judgements I feared from others. I realised that I was the one leading this within my own head. I needed to accept all of me as it arose, whether it fitted in within societal norms or not. Whether things I chose to do with my life fitted in with my mentorship and previous training. Whether it aligned with the spiritual community’s expectations of me by even becoming a mainstream meditation teacher….There were so many things that needed to be let go, dissolved, seen and accepted by myself. It is divine timing now, that it is my turn to let go and step into what I am most aligned to do with my soul right now. And that’s letting everything go in my life that no longer resonates, that is no longer my truth. Letting go, despite others opinions. Letting go even though I can not see the road ahead clearly. Trusting and stepping. Trusting ands stepping. I don’t know about you, but I need to live aligned to what is most truthful for me. That is living and directs me which way to turn and when to step.

If you have things come to mind for you, this practice of visualising yourself close to death may help you, too. Now I see things that I ran from as trivial, as things that do not matter in the scheme of things. Add it to my life lessons so that I may share this with whomever. Who knows if this may help another?

The concept of time fascinates me…. do any of us truly know how much time we have left? That is the beauty of life- the unknown. No matter the money or job you have- death is the great equaliser and one that we run from. How do we know it isn’t a great release, beautiful and serene? We don’t. Imagine getting to the inevitable knowing with a soft, sweet smile, with the thought echoing within your mind you truly LIVED! You gave it a shot. You learnt heaps. You loved courageously. You surrendered to life and let it have its way with you. You allowed the energy within to tantalise you, to inspire you, to connect you more than you thought could have ever been possible. What an adventure…. Now it’s time to rest, brave one, rest in love and connection….

NB: this practice is intended to empower the individual rather than create anxiety. If facing the ultimate fear- death before physically dying, it can create the willingness to face things in life that pale in comparison.

All my love,
Elise.

Featured Image art by Tomasz Alen Kopera

The Courage to Enter Deep Spiritual Love (poem)

Oh, touch my heart, deeper, and deeper still….

Take me to the unknown, whisper truths in my ear

Take my hand, join me intimately, be ‘here’ completely

May I have courage to enter the unknown-

From formless to form and back again,

Immersed so deeply so that I may not be able to

Detect the delectable delights of the form

From the permeating energy of the formless.

Both, balanced, simultaneously-

Poised in the moment, and the moment proceeds

For hours and days- loving, processing and being….

Beyond the mind, yet including the mind

Excluding nothing… Accepting all of me

Rebirthed into myself over and over again

The joy, the grief, the knowing, the exploration,

The passion, the pain, the bliss, the love-

The ALL.

Oh, courage do not fail me.

I’ll be there…. in the unknown,

Basking, glowing, growing, breathing, rhythmically moving

To my own song…

 

Art by Kateryna Kovarzh

Written by Elise Heyward

Saturate Me Again and Again

I am already soaked through to the bone from tending my garden,
Tending to my weeds and exploring my inner plants…
I implore you to saturate me to my core
That I may feel my pulsing energy from within
So that I may be immersed in the glorious
Connection and reunion with you…
Again and again and again
Of this I will never get tired
Saturate me so that my marrow purifies
And opens to the blinding radiance
Splaying untruths out of me…
Let me whisper only prayers from my lips
Poised in the timeless moment, surrendered
With the passion of an alive body, 
Opening, opening, opening to be saturated once more
Surround me, enter me, embrace me, love me-
For I am soaked through in the ever connecting light
Connection…. connection…. connection….. yes
Love…. deep, potent and infinite – It never left.

Featured Image by Leslie Ballweg

A Poem: She Walks Into The Storm

The wild woman beats within her bosom
The rain pelts down on her face
Her roles are forgotten now
In this moment of opposites.
The road is warm beneath her
The rain pelting down is cool-
She feels both simultaneously
on her body, and laughter arises…
Out of the bliss and ecstasy
Rising through the body, where energy abounds
Thrusting through the core of her being-
The storm in her personal life
Seems so small and inconsequential.
Grateful for being so unable to control
The weather that is wild
The storm causing blackouts
The lightning flashing around her
The thunder vibrating ground that holds her
Yes. No control…….
Just surrender to the difficulties-
No control, keep stepping into the eye of the storm.
No control, can’t see through to the peaceful weather
No control, finding peace in that, surrendering…
No control, a gentle reminder to live for now
To trust in the moment, to feel the sensations
And to learn, be humble, and have courage
Trusting in the process, no matter the storm

Elise

Featured image: Zlatko Music Art

You’re in a Marriage. You’ve Outgrown it. What do you do?

There are so many aspects to look at when you feel like you’ve outgrown your marriage. In this video, I explore the sign posts to step through to see if the relationship can begin again, or if it simply is not in the highest for either one of you. Use everything in your life to grow, to know thyself. Please don’t throw this opportunity away to learn more about yourself and what aligns and what doesn’t.

With the Sound of Music song wafting into my mind- “Climb every mountain, board every stream, follow every rainbow….” makes me feel that perhaps it’s best to get your learnings from your husband/ wife now, then to continue the patterns with someone else? If, of course, both are prepared to a certain extent to do this.

Please have a watch of my latest YouTube Video on my brand new channel: ‘Spiritual Growth and Motherhood’.

With all my love and hope,
Elise

More… So Much More…

We find ourselves in a time of looking beyond…. beyond what we previously knew, what we previously could have even perceived or imagined. This is the beautiful beginning of the time when we are humbled, when we become aware of greater cycles beyond that which our personal short existence can tell us. We are entering the unknown both within us, and in the world that surrounds us. A world of timelessness. Of boundlessness. Of releasing. Of stepping into that which creates and maintains faith. Of true sacred union with the divine. This is being birthed now. This is the connection we have been disconnected from, the balance between energy, the mystical component- the divine merging with our bodies in sacred, holy union. Now as we walk this earth. Yes, we are entering the time of energy. And energy moves through everything. There is no boundary it cannot and will not cross. There is nothing it cannot and will not touch and create permanent change. Change- that which creates fear in the collective. Change IS the only constant in life, and yet we try to protect ourselves from it. And this is the start, only the start of that process. A random virus unseen to the human eye, so minute is it, has brought an outdated system of greed, manipulation, gross power and a focus of wealth as the main example of success to a holt. Priorities are shifting and our hearts are igniting again.

I live across the road from a childcare facility and I overheard two men who introduced each other so they clearly didn’t know each other, discussing openly about their income situation, the fact that neither had a job to go to. Both were not angry. They were talking for longer than half an hour, connecting in, knowing that they weren’t alone. It was beautiful. Two men who are usually too busy to drop off their kids and rush to work to even acknowledge each other previously has lead to openly discussing how they are doing and sharing their situations with each other. This is huge, and a bloody big step in healing the gaping wounds within our masculine energy on the planet. Time to surrender. Time to connect to the heart. Time to re-prioritise. Time to create a new and connected way to live which includes the divine masculine. Oh, yes. We are changed forever. It’s up to us to watch what our attention is focused on. Are you trying to get things back to the way they were? Or are you courageously attentive to your thoughts and energy as the world around us takes a new shape- bravely entering the unknown with child like curiosity? What are you co-creating? Fear? Or connection? Hope or hopelessness? Love or separation?

I enter this time and every minute with hope- that being present in the moment connected to my energy with the loving prayer to help calm others and lovingly support them during these changes IS energetically felt.

I have faith, absolute faith in the forming soul connection of each person having a huge impact on humanity.

To the shifting <3

With love,
Elise

The Dark Night of the Soul/Ego With Shiva- God of Destruction

Artist Jamie Samul

The Dark night of the soul or the Dark Night of the Ego, is a process we go through whilst on the evolutionary path to know truth, or the spiritual path. This morning, when I was in the midst of my Dark Night of the Ego, I could feel something that needed to be typed out. I knew another angle of this ‘Dark Night’ needed to come through. What came through was to explain it from the point of view of Shiva- God of Consciousness and Destruction from the Indian Pantheon and to use this ancient myth to directly apply it to our lives.

Shiva is known for his cosmic dance- a beautiful, fierce, grace filled destructive dance, in service to universal truth- destroying that which holds our consciousness back, or keeps us small in our lives. It is a blessing, this time in our lives, not a curse. It puts us on track, destroys or takes away those things that do not align.

Before rebirth in our lives, before creating from that ultimate soul connected place, Shiva dances his cosmic dance of the universe. He shows the areas of our lives that no longer fit and need to be cut out of our lives- to be more aligned to our soul and its imprint within us we were born with.

In this process he brings everything from your life up with dust and in a flurry. And then, as the storm subsides, that which no longer fits in your life anymore has turned to dust and floats gracefully to the floor. This is the moment of sinking to your knees, not bracing, nor holding onto that which is no longer in form in your life- or no longer animated in energy. It is dead. But with this awareness of the cosmic dance, comes the wisdom that this isn’t happening ‘to you’, it is happening ‘for you’ (Robert O’hotto). This is a time when the opportunity to see the destruction as a way to grow through, to be both witness and participant in your life, to overcome this with wisdom of yourself instead of victimhood mentality, or thinking ‘this is the way it is’. No, this is transformation. This shit is real.

This dance is the destruction from the heights of soul alignment- so high it is aligned with God, to consciousness itself. Some things remain to be picked up in the settling dust, and some things have simply dissolved into that dust- where there is nothing left for your soul, and for this to remain would simply hurt yourself and others involved. You know this time because the whole energetic system within your body shifts away from this person, place or thing. It is as if it has died- at least energetically. And you can still be open and loving, not blocking and protecting. It’s just time, and you know it. It’s just time… This is the call of the soul. All that is needed is a heart felt ‘yes’. The cosmic dance takes care of the rest. Boom- Job gone.

Boom- relationship gone.

Boom- money gone.

Boom- death in the family.

Boom- car gone.

What is left? Where does one look? Within. And look to the sacred, the mystical truths, because THAT is all that is left…. That’s where we look. Broken, honest, humbled, prepared to start again…. Integrity paths the way. No longer searching or striving, but listening, flowing and trusting. Vulnerable and powerful, accepting all of your strengths and weaknesses and everything that makes you unique on this path we call life. We sit in this and trust.

This is the destruction within your life for the highest good during this time. When Shiva dances- he dances with the rhythm of the universe and WITH the encryption of your soul. And when this beats through every layer within you- and every layer outside of you in your life around you as you go about your day, know that you are not alone. Know that you are stepping into your aligned life that you have been waiting and praying for, and that others are doing the same. Let’s help to walk each other home.

To the truth in you, the truth in me and the alignment of the truth in it All…

“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own soul. One becomes enlightened by making the darkness conscious.”
Carl Gustav Jung

Featured art- “The Dark Night of the Soul” by Jamie Samul.

Tools to Use on the Path of Knowing Thyself

In this podcast I speak about the perspective of seeing the karma, the triggers, the family patterns we experience in our life as tools to knowing ourselves deeper and with more compassion. Giving ourselves something to sink our teeth into whilst on the path of evolution, and knowing ourselves. As Rumi puts it, “The universe is not outside of you. Look inside yourself; everything that you want, you already are.” By knowing ourselves, we learn the sacred mysteries of the universe and embody it in our lives….

https://eliseheyward.podbean.com/e/tools-to-use-on-the-path-of-knowing-thyself/

From the Temple of Dendera