Letting Go in the Steadiness of the Unknown

The Universe  keeps us physically apart…
Surrendering control over to divine timing,
Both continuing to practice alone, preparing…
Stoking the sacred fire, preparing for the inevitable
If the stars should align, and then when they align….
The energy between us flows like ribbon, it moves in a figure of eight….
Through my mind, my throat, my body… I tremble as I open… breathe
It merges with my essence, moves me- writhing on my back…
Implores moans of sheer delight from my parted lips…
Oh this connection through the realms-
Oh, how it destroys all veils placed upon us by convention…no…
This…. this is something else, and is worthy of complete surrender…
This is the arrival of the response to my sacred yearning-
The echoing and haunting symphony of my soul, whole and ready
Calling in a lover with the sacred union blueprint….
Oh but sweet energetic lover, will you stand in this sacred fire willingly?
And let truth seer all that you have known?- Burn it away to nothing more than ash?
I feel you… Come… come…. come…..
Be in devotion to the sacredness that flows beyond and through and above and beneath the world that is shown to us…
Will you be pulled into this vortex to allow truth to guide the way?-
Letting go of all control, all conditioning around relationships?- all ways of how it ‘should be’, or ‘should look’?
Letting go of all conditioning around how life itself should be lived?
Can you look into the mystical dark abyss and see its many opportunities-
with love and acceptance, or shall you perish in the fear of it?
Would you dare to call this highest of vibrations home? – Honour it, devote yourself to the mystical truths to serve the truth and light always?
Could you call it home?- and serve the mystical flame that is birthed by us?
All of these questions I hand over to the divine, to the openness of space
And here I rest, I practice, I hold, I embrace
The steadiness of the unknown….

Written by Elise Heyward
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To My Future Lover …

What if we allowed ourselves to be taken by the current
Within this vast and deepest of oceans?
What if we dared to let connection and truth rule
Despite the chance of heartache?
What if we became so brave as to dare to love
Without knowing the outcome?

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Your Passionate Servant (poem)

I wish I could make you feel
the light that I see in you
The light that I feel flooding through
my body, through trees….and everything…
The energy that wants you to stop
That wants you to feel and not think
That wants you to experience- not force.
Faith is a burning deeply within me
Tears form in the knowing we are one
I can’t convince anyone, but I can know it
In my bones, in my whole body, in my hair
In every single cell in my body….
There is more.
There.
Is.
More.
I’ve seen it. I’ve felt it. I’ve embodied it.
That which cannot be spoken… in concentration.

But every now and then you get glimpses of IT
In everyday life-
In your deja vu, or when you fall in love-
In that first precious ignition
That…. That- there IT is….

Know this:-
I serve one thing- IT-  the light in you and me
In everyone. That truth, that power, that grace, that love….
That perfectly balanced energy beyond the individual
But within each of us…..
So, I will be here. Loving, passionately devoting myself
To that…. all of that…. Nothing less…
No matter if you see it or not.
I will still continue…
I will still continue…
I will still continue…
Your passionate servant

Woundings- Core Work and Opening to the Divine

Today I listened to the Great Marianne Williamson about forgiveness and releasing. She made some valid points – namely that we can choose to let the woundings, the lack of forgiveness, the judgements, the ‘fill in the blanks with your baggage’ and step into 2021 free of these, or at least consciously looking at them and being willing in any moment that life presents an opportunity to you- to change a behaviour or pattern that you ordinarily react with. Even a slight change can make a world of difference. She asked for all of us to collaborate in love. To be a collective of loving individuals prepared to change within for changes to occur outside of us. I love that. So here’s the thing that gets me. The hardest thing to do this in is relationships. I see this in sister wounds and group wounds. I see this in intimate relationships. I see this in relationship with Self. The more there is heaviness, or awkwardness provides the best manure for growth. This is the place to step into our woundings- whatever they are, and humbly see what’s there with compassion for self. We all f*#*k up from time to time.

It’s time we forgave ourselves and others. Open up to the mysteries, the magic, and the miracles that exist beyond our attachments to our heavy woundings.

It’s almost an identity we can have- “This happened to me when I was…. He did this….. My Mum did that….” The people involved, the situation, or whatever is there that is being held onto has power over you. The more unwilling to forgive is a reflection of YOUR inner world and not the person that did something to you or the circumstance that happened. Let’s go a little deeper:-

Victim: First recorded in 1490-1500 from the Latin word victima sacrificial animal (Dictionary .com).

When we look at this we are not animals- nor helpless, nor are we being sacrificed. We may be at the time of atrocities, of unfairness. But, we clearly are still alive- have not died. The alteration of the meaning of this word has taken away power. Forgiveness is the soul cleansing act that reclaims it. To get to forgiveness is to trudge through the woundings, or that which separates you from your essence and connection with others. This is an arduous task, but one that sings hauntingly to those who are called to the path of the soul and the lessons born to experience in this life. We are meant to make mistakes- that’s how we learn. Sometimes, people get hurt. We get hurt. We have a choice. To stay here- or to see it, honour it, LEARN from it- then let it go. In doing so we can then reach  place of forgiveness. It doesn’t grow on trees. It’s not a pill we can pop and then ALL will be forgiven. It’s life’s challenge to rise above, learn and grow. And this takes courage.


Hero/ Heroine: A person noted for courageous acts, or a person considered as a role model for certain traits.

When these are applied to the inner journey of truth, otherwise known as the Hero/ Heroines Journey (of which we are all here for in differing ways) is of true empowerment that ultimately leads us to have faith and let go and trusting one meets challenges and gathers the tools/ knowledge/ understanding needed to face them. When we look at ancient mystical teachings, opposites exist and must. Where there is light, there is dark; where there is feminine there is masculine; where there is cool there is heat etc. When there is a problem- there is also presented a solution. It is up to us to be the clear vessel to enable the solution to be embodied and lived. It is not just about logic. This is a soul deep immersion that spreads throughout the body. The mind can get the hell out of the way and in fact can be used in a manner to aid in the embodiment, complete immersion on the path. It must. Before the sword of truth goes outward, it first must be turned onto self so that we can see our woundings, or fears that may express unhealthily outward toward others. The ‘sword’ I speak of can be thoughts. When a negative thought comes up about another, turn it around. Look at it. With compassion know that this comes from somewhere within you and find that place. Sit with it. This is an investigation, thank that thought as this is a way to understand and release a wound or fear within you that otherwise would not be touched and essentially left to fester and ooze its way out and into our life. We have doctors and nurses who investigate our external physical wounds, letting us know if there needs to be more treatment, more investigation…. but our inner wounds are our responsibility. We have the answer within that comes when the wound arises. That we can trust in, when we do the work of looking at the truth within, we can open to the solutions. We just have to be prepared to see what’s happening and let go into the process of life to go on the journey to release them when they present.

So, our openness, our freedom, our life force is up to us. The more we hold onto woundings or judgements or other negative aspects of our mind, the more we move away from our power. When we have the courage and compassion to step into the challenges presented to us in our lives, the more we create space to let go, to unravel the pain and anger the wounds etc have on us, and forgive- not so much for the other person, but for ourselves and our growth whilst in this body.

Sending so much love and empowerment to you as you step into 2021. Know that you aren’t alone- we are all here to help walk each other home.
Elise

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A Poem: From Here Let Me Live

I am awakened once more from my slumber with the Gods
It’s not the desire of the fleshly meeting, no…
Nor is it attempting to satiate the insatiable-
Which lingers as long as I shall have breath in my body,
Song in my throat, a beating heart and spirit in my eyes…
I surrender…..
I surrender…..
I surrender…..
Clean all parts of me that thinks it knows,
Replace it with the innocent curiosity of a child….
I surrender to that part of me that cannot be satiated-
That part that yearns more than anything for the most sacred union
Taking me beyond yet being within my own body more than ever
Allowing connection so deeply: Merging, infusing, creating…
Strong and true in my own being, whole within myself-
My practice, my creativity, my holding, my truth, my embodiment
Yet knowing this to be also in other-
For we are all connected, all part of the All.
I open to all that will come my way, all in the sacred unfolding
And so I continue the practice of union within Self-
Merging two opposites, surrendering, allowing and being in presence.
A deepening of love, of faith, of connection to the ALL
From here let me live….

Honouring Resting and Recharging as Much as Action

Sometimes we’ve had a spell of inspired flow, or action. It’s amazing when that happens. Something to keep in mind so that we don’t push ourselves to ‘stay with it’ when clearly we need to rest, is to firstly look at the way we are judging ourselves in this time. Is there a thought that says ‘I should be doing something?’ Because that is a conditioned thought that is needed to be broken in order to realise that looking after Self and caring is ‘doing’ something. It’s honouring the rest that your body and mind need. It’s being kind to yourself. It’s honouring the natural flow in your world. The stream may be trickling instead of flowing, which is fine, too. There must be a winter as well as a summer. Whatever it is, please honour whatever your body is yearning right now.

With so much love,
Elise

Choosing Love Over Fear in Every Moment

Today I was out walking my old dog. This dog of mine we adopted when she was 6 months old. She had been beaten, left for dead and had a deep fear of men and obvious trust issues. We could tell she had a beautiful soul, her eyes were kind despite all she had gone through. Her spine was showing out of malnutrition and I could tell she was simply happy to belong somewhere. We worked through her issues, and to tell you the truth I am still working with them today, sum 15 years later. Amazing to be walking every day with her still. She trusts people and rarely hackles. She is amazing with kids and she is great on the lead. The problem is with seeing other dogs. She usually hackles, growls and shakes, becomes anxious and aggressive at the same time. I have received training over the years to help but nothing seemed to work.

This morning, on my walk with her, we arrived at the huge yard of a big male dog who always enjoys to protect his yard. He is only doing his job at the fence line. Today I watched Jenta, my dog, tense up. I watched the hackles rise. And I breathed as I usually do, staying calm. This time, I reached out to her lovingly and patted her back. She stopped hackling and looked at me. Wanting more pats. So we walked passed the scary dog loving each other. That other dog could not get at her, could not make her afraid. She had something she considered better to put her attention on.

We again tested it on another famous fence line of Jenta’s and we did the same thing, again she chose to be with me over the fear. She trusted me enough to know there was no immediate threat and to focus on me. As I was walking, I contemplated this for a while. Hmmm… I love it when direct application of universal falls right in my lap. To choose love over fear. After watching my dog go through her process of hackling, anxiety, aggression to calm and love and even able to sit with her back to the perceived ‘threat’. Amazing!

Despite what has happened in our lives in the past. We can at any moment shift our attention to love and trust the unfolding of our path. Watching my dog walk with such confidence now is bloody rewarding.
I wish the same for you. To be able to choose hope and love where you can, and feel the benefits of this in your life when you do.

With so much love,
Elise

A Note to My Boys

My boys, I want you to explore all of yourselves.
The wild, the free, the amazing, the ugly side, the parts of you that not even you will see…
I wish you to be free of them in open acceptance of your imperfectly perfect humanity.
I pray that my parenting up to this point and in the future doesn’t set you back too much
From knowing the truth of who you really are. The mystical truth of who you really are.
That you are more than this body. More than the job you choose. More than your marital status.
You are a miracle.
May you stand up for yourself, your voice be heard, and know yourself enough to know your values
May you honour and love yourself enough to say ‘no’ or leave circumstances that hurt you.
May you stand up for those who cannot stand up for themselves if and when you come across it
May you be fair and just to yourself, and to others
May you feel the truth that there is more than just the physical, may you feel, feel, feel!!!
May you have the courage, my dear boys, to feel emotions and allow their genuine expression
May you not restrict yourself to fit into the stereotype- know I will love you no matter what.
May you have the courage to love openly, to have so much compassion for yourself and others
May you feel connection
May you feel my support gently at your back as you step more into your own life-
Edging further away from me into the world. Know I will never stop being here for you to return to.
For a soft landing, nurturing and a springboard to jump back into life with.

Remember, you’re never too old for hugs, to cry, or to feel scared. That’s part of being human… Please don’t deprive yourself of receiving beautiful hugs in life. It’s a gift.
Please know you are helping to change the world, my boys.
Have courage to be a little different at times- or all of the time…
Step gently and respectfully on the earth, my sons. Open your hearts and feel connection.
Do your best. I’m here when you fall. I’m here when you rise. And whilst I am here doing that, I will be in my own rising and falling- living my life as fully as I can. I will lead by example, my boys. Let’s live!

I promise I will do the best damn job I can to raise you boys to give you the fertile soil from which to grow.
Love Mum

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