Sometimes we’ve had a spell of inspired flow, or action. It’s amazing when that happens. Something to keep in mind so that we don’t push ourselves to ‘stay with it’ when clearly we need to rest, is to firstly look at the way we are judging ourselves in this time. Is there a thought that says ‘I should be doing something?’ Because that is a conditioned thought that is needed to be broken in order to realise that looking after Self and caring is ‘doing’ something. It’s honouring the rest that your body and mind need. It’s being kind to yourself. It’s honouring the natural flow in your world. The stream may be trickling instead of flowing, which is fine, too. There must be a winter as well as a summer. Whatever it is, please honour whatever your body is yearning right now.
The Dark night of the soul or the Dark Night of the Ego, is a process we go through whilst on the evolutionary path to know truth, or the spiritual path. This morning, when I was in the midst of my Dark Night of the Ego, I could feel something that needed to be typed out. I knew another angle of this ‘Dark Night’ needed to come through. What came through was to explain it from the point of view of Shiva- God of Consciousness and Destruction from the Indian Pantheon and to use this ancient myth to directly apply it to our lives.
Shiva is known for his cosmic dance- a beautiful, fierce, grace filled destructive dance, in service to universal truth- destroying that which holds our consciousness back, or keeps us small in our lives. It is a blessing, this time in our lives, not a curse. It puts us on track, destroys or takes away those things that do not align.
Before rebirth in our lives, before creating from that ultimate soul connected place, Shiva dances his cosmic dance of the universe. He shows the areas of our lives that no longer fit and need to be cut out of our lives- to be more aligned to our soul and its imprint within us we were born with.
In this process he brings everything from your life up with dust and in a flurry. And then, as the storm subsides, that which no longer fits in your life anymore has turned to dust and floats gracefully to the floor. This is the moment of sinking to your knees, not bracing, nor holding onto that which is no longer in form in your life- or no longer animated in energy. It is dead. But with this awareness of the cosmic dance, comes the wisdom that this isn’t happening ‘to you’, it is happening ‘for you’ (Robert O’hotto). This is a time when the opportunity to see the destruction as a way to grow through, to be both witness and participant in your life, to overcome this with wisdom of yourself instead of victimhood mentality, or thinking ‘this is the way it is’. No, this is transformation. This shit is real.
This dance is the destruction from the heights of soul alignment- so high it is aligned with God, to consciousness itself. Some things remain to be picked up in the settling dust, and some things have simply dissolved into that dust- where there is nothing left for your soul, and for this to remain would simply hurt yourself and others involved. You know this time because the whole energetic system within your body shifts away from this person, place or thing. It is as if it has died- at least energetically. And you can still be open and loving, not blocking and protecting. It’s just time, and you know it. It’s just time… This is the call of the soul. All that is needed is a heart felt ‘yes’. The cosmic dance takes care of the rest. Boom- Job gone.
Boom- relationship gone.
Boom- money gone.
Boom- death in the family.
Boom- car gone.
What is left? Where does one look? Within. And look to the sacred, the mystical truths, because THAT is all that is left…. That’s where we look. Broken, honest, humbled, prepared to start again…. Integrity paths the way. No longer searching or striving, but listening, flowing and trusting. Vulnerable and powerful, accepting all of your strengths and weaknesses and everything that makes you unique on this path we call life. We sit in this and trust.
This is the destruction within your life for the highest good during this time. When Shiva dances- he dances with the rhythm of the universe and WITH the encryption of your soul. And when this beats through every layer within you- and every layer outside of you in your life around you as you go about your day, know that you are not alone. Know that you are stepping into your aligned life that you have been waiting and praying for, and that others are doing the same. Let’s help to walk each other home.
To the truth in you, the truth in me and the alignment of the truth in it All…
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own soul. One becomes enlightened by making the darkness conscious.”
Carl Gustav Jung
Featured art- “The Dark Night of the Soul” by Jamie Samul.
Nestled deep in our ancestral line lurks fear in the individualized choice of worship of the divine. Pressure to conform to the ‘tribal choice’ existed thousands of years ago, and still does today. Many wars have arisen because of this ultimate rule over power and an immature, or unevolved approach to divine worship. This holds no space for a person to worship freely what their soul desires and requires as they open deeper and deeper and continue to gain higher and higher levels of consciousness on their journey that we call life.
In our life we have many words that have been adopted and used as propaganda against those who wish to stand up swim against the grain of the norm in society. The reclamation of our very right to follow that which sings to our soul, which lights us up, which connects us to something greater than ourselves, yet also connects us to that which is unique within us, without the finger pointing ‘witch hunt’ that is so present today and has its roots deeply buried within the constructs of society as we know it- the ‘word bomb’ or powerful fearful energy behind the word ‘Cult’.
Many are conscious of the witch wound within the collective. It is essentially the feminine line within us that holds magic, esoteric gifts, and energetic connection, rhythm, flow, seasons, honouring women’s moon cycles or blood cycles, the ancient art of midwifery, and much, much more including the worship of the divine via embodiment. It’s a line that needs space to exist and flow. It’s more intangible, and is life force itself. It’s a healing opposite of the masculine when the two co exist within ourselves and in the collective in a balanced way. The masculine line is rational, logical, physical and more tangible energy, is often linked to monetisation and has had dominance over the nearly extinct full expression of the feminine energy ‘line’. The feminine ‘line’- especially the powerful esoteric nature of it, has been suppressed over thousands of years and thus in its place has grown a huge bleeding wound, which many women are leading the way and healing within themselves right now through the feminine ‘line’, combining esoteric energetic cleansing practices with the masculine reflection to consciously bring about change within themselves, within their family ancestry and within the collective. By doing so they are ultimately diffusing the ‘word bomb’ of witch in the collective.
There is something that hits both the masculine and the feminine line EQUALLY:- The inability to worship the divine outside of the norm in society without being labelled as being in a cult. This needs to be flushed out. There is still a gaping wound linked to ‘witch hunts’- anything esoteric practiced in the past there was a threat of being killed, and a real fear of authorities who were employed to uphold that which was accepted to be the practice or religion during the time. In both men and women. The very creation of the Tarot cards was born out of the need to keep the DIRECT connection to the divine (without the use of a priest) secret, appearing as a game they were playing in order to not raise suspicion from authorities. This is trapped in our DNA, our ancestral line, our family patterning.
If we look at our family patterns we can see the authority figures. I have many friends, myself and my husband included, who have been accused of being in a part of a cult, or jokingly accused of it. If there is no logical explanation, or if it is too different from the norm, that label is attached. Makes no difference. If reclamation is what we are talking about, then it’s time to diffuse the ‘word bomb’, the negative connotation this ‘cult’ word has taken on. It’s time to reclaim our soul- filled authentic nature and f***k off outside fears to now shed this layer of ‘skin’ for our evolution and the evolution of the collective.
The word ‘cult’ actually came from the 17th century from the French word created from the Latin noun cultus (worship). So the word came from the Latin cultus- which means to worship, which was based on the verb colere- which means to care or cultivate (Wikipedia)! Interesting the energy behind the word- having an evil connotation to it today.
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“This work is needed now to break the shackles of thousands of years of oppression keeping us within the confines of a low level of consciousness- or the same level of consciousness.”
If there was one thing to be taken out of this piece, it would be this: Anyone who takes the path less travelled, who dares to follow their inner devotion to what resonates with them for their higher development and best possible life, go for it. Do not be afraid of being deemed you are in a cult. This work is needed now to break the shackles of thousands of years of oppression keeping us within the confines of a low level of consciousness- or the same level of consciousness we’ve been in for a long time. There is more, much more….. You are limitless with limitless potential. We all are, we just need to reclaim that. So, continue your devotion to whatever it is. Or really jump into that which you have been dipping your toe into, for fear of being different or that tricky hidden ancestral fear that keeps you aligned to something that perhaps doesn’t fit in your life anymore. The world needs more divine connection, more energy, more passion, more joy, more bloody LOVE! Enough with the fear! Enough with the propaganda. Let’s just bloody live!
So, cult you say? Sure, whatever. I prefer to call it the path of truth, of connection, of really sinking my teeth into knowing myself while I walk this earth for such a short period of time. It’s time to challenge the confines within Self once again. It’s time to reclaim the right of divine worship however fits our unique soul imprint. It’s time to step into healing our ancestral lineage of this outdated fear.
In this podcast I speak about the perspective of seeing the karma, the triggers, the family patterns we experience in our life as tools to knowing ourselves deeper and with more compassion. Giving ourselves something to sink our teeth into whilst on the path of evolution, and knowing ourselves. As Rumi puts it, “The universe is not outside of you. Look inside yourself; everything that you want, you already are.” By knowing ourselves, we learn the sacred mysteries of the universe and embody it in our lives….
It’s nice to speak of energetic soul contract beginnings…. but the endings are an interesting aspect to examine.
It’s time to speak of lessons learnt, expired contracts and how to work with getting to your inner truth in this …
It’s a fascinating topic- soul contracts. They may not necessarily be ‘forever’. Lessons are learnt. Soul contracts are there to do the ultimate- lead you back to Self with lesson/s, or a slice of wisdom to be learnt. Once that is fulfilled, there may be a dramatic drop in energetic connection between you and the person you had an intense energetic connection with. You may be left bewildered. You may try to force a re-connection…. but the truth of the energy speaks louder than words. It could evolve into a different relationship. Or you may not feel the need to re-connect at all. Whatever the situation, you’d be best to follow the energy within your body and dive deeply into your own truth- your inner wise knowing. For the lessons may already be learnt, and new ones ‘waiting around the corner’……
Knowing how you stand in this is a beautiful and important thing. Finding inner truth is paramount. To tell if there is a defense tactic- another pattern playing out, or fear of some sort, there’s an awesome set of reflective questions to do to feel into truth in this situation! But first, take three deep breaths- still yourself. Pay attention to your body and how it feels. Let the breath expand you as you breathe in and as you breathe out relax into yourself, dropping your awareness from your head down through the heart and resting on your dan-tien/ womb space. Notice the questions rely on ‘feel’ rather than thought. This is a really cool practice to drop from the brain and into the body which is integral for accessing that deep inner knowing- that wise place within.
Feel into the following questions:-
1. Did I get ‘triggered’ or upset by the person, and not dealing with it very well? 2. Did I put up walls? 3. Am I in fear of something? 4. Is there a pattern existing that I couldn’t consciously see before? 5. Do I need to act on that pattern by exiting the relationship/ friendship/ contract? 5. Is there something in me that I am being shown about a previous soul contract and how I reacted- witnessing a pattern? 6. Am I protecting myself? 7. How does it feel in my body to not be in contact with this person who is/ was a soul contract? 8. Does it feel like I can no longer learn in this contract? 9. Do I feel restricted/ limited in this contract? 10. Do I feel empowered and free in this contract?
One angle of working to enhance living our lives in a more conscious way is within sacred soul contracts. It is an awesome way to look into a pattern or unconscious thing we continually do, and purposely look into that part of Self to work to transform it. And once one person has stopped playing that matching pattern (mirror) which is a wounding or unconscious part within Self, the intensity between the two may dramatically decrease, and soul magnetism stops. The other may choose to transform or to remain the same. If transformation occurs in that person than energetic connection may be restored. If not, there’s a strong possibility that the contract has expired.
This is the time to go deeply within to explore where you stand within yourself. There’s a call from the depths and heights asking for more maturity when working within sacred contracts- enjoy them, but recognise what they are and the divinely lead connection that exists. Alignment and trust in the inner knowings strengthen when surrendered to universal truths. If you are able to feel your truth, there’s a deep beauty to be able to ‘Let go, and let god’ in true connection and rhythm with the universe without unhealthy attachments.
It breaks me. It makes me sink to my knees perplexed at how we have managed to end up here. In this place where it is a rarity to collectively feel relaxed, happy and content. Where we don’t say the words, ‘It’s just the way it is. What do you do?’ Do? DO?
I’m not buying it any longer. Stay on your lounge eating potato chips while the world around you slowly dies. Stay glued to the TV while you numb yourself from thoughts about the stresses of the days work. Stay looking at the next holiday so you can escape this madness for a while- maybe you can pay it off? Maybe you’ll get a nasty credit card bill that only adds to your stress when you return. Return. RETURN!
Return, that’s it. If you stay glued to this cycle then you won’t know what else life can offer…. and there IS SO MUCH MORE. But it takes guts. It takes change. It takes not fucking throwing your life away on sedentary, numbing, melancholic things or practices. It takes challenging yourself to learn new things. It takes doing things just for yourself to enjoy. It takes stopping those thoughts of ‘I can’t, I have no time.’ What have you done? To have no time to live? What has happened to you? When did you stop fucking loving yourself??? Leading by example of how interesting and limitless life can be? Did you ever watch your parents or an adult having no time as a kid? Did it look like fun? Did it look like a good use of energy? Time to break free of this outdated pattern structure within us. Don’t worry, your family will still exist and love you. It’s time to consciously look at why we do the things we do, and take our sovereign power back.
I’m not writing this to get you to feel shame. I’m writing this to shake you up, shake you a little to let some of the truth seep in. You are in charge of your life. Not your kids, not your husband, not your job…. YOU. Take responsibility for this and make the change. You know WHAT needs to happen inside. YOU know what YOU uniquely love. Come back to YOU. Even if it’s rising 30 minutes before the house hold to do something just for you- yoga, a work out, meditation, drawing, writing… whatever it is. Give yourself the time. Like a long lost friend coming to town to see you- you’d create time for them, right? Well, do it for YOU! Daily! What do YOU NEED? You’re bloody well worth it. And your relationships will thrive the more you thrive.
It’s time to give back to Self. It’s time to create space. It’s time to stop looking outwards and start to make the changes to come back into our own power. For when we shift our internal world, the world around us shifts too. And you become a beacon of light, living by example of the fact it can be done. Change can happen and it’s worth it, even if it’s an internal shift. Pass on the torch. Be the change. I’m with you.
