The Process of Letting Go Into Change

The Process of Letting Go Into Change

It takes courage to look at your life with a willingness to start again. To have nothing. To surrender it all. Below is a piece for YOU. Know that you are not alone, and somehow, perhaps you can have refuge in these words, as I did watching them being typed out of my fingers. This is not a ‘how to’, or self help article. This is from one human to another. May your choices be aligned. May you feel free to live your most authentic life. May you feel connected to yourself, to others and beyond…..

Sending love and loads of hope for your journey,
Elise

No longer is it the gentle kiss as a whispered reminder of that which I cannot enter, but a deluge, a flooding, making its way through everything, dripping, drenching drowning the life I had thought up for myself containing the labels, the roles, the absolute identity…. and now…. now it is all being flooded in the rain that keeps flowing, in the tears that trickle down my face, in the swollen rivers and lakes pregnant with truth and leaking it out everywhere….. I know that I know….. Truth has a way of coming out…. Turn my face and pretend that the rivers do not spill, that the banks and their foundations are being destroyed. Pretend to be as I once was, content with the life I had created for myself, but not harbouring the whole truth until now it pulses and knocks down my door, breaks my windows and rampages through the safe house I had built, content but somewhere within deeply yearning…. I am holding onto the back door, swinging in the rampage, gripping onto the perception of who I thought I was. My fingers slipping, water pummels my head, my body, my eyes so that I cannot see… It comes strong and powerful yet with a whisper of a message, “Let go, let go, let go….”

 

Woundings- Core Work and Opening to the Divine

Today I listened to the Great Marianne Williamson about forgiveness and releasing. She made some valid points – namely that we can choose to let the woundings, the lack of forgiveness, the judgements, the ‘fill in the blanks with your baggage’ and step into 2021 free of these, or at least consciously looking at them and being willing in any moment that life presents an opportunity to you- to change a behaviour or pattern that you ordinarily react with. Even a slight change can make a world of difference. She asked for all of us to collaborate in love. To be a collective of loving individuals prepared to change within for changes to occur outside of us. I love that. So here’s the thing that gets me. The hardest thing to do this in is relationships. I see this in sister wounds and group wounds. I see this in intimate relationships. I see this in relationship with Self. The more there is heaviness, or awkwardness provides the best manure for growth. This is the place to step into our woundings- whatever they are, and humbly see what’s there with compassion for self. We all f*#*k up from time to time.

It’s time we forgave ourselves and others. Open up to the mysteries, the magic, and the miracles that exist beyond our attachments to our heavy woundings.

It’s almost an identity we can have- “This happened to me when I was…. He did this….. My Mum did that….” The people involved, the situation, or whatever is there that is being held onto has power over you. The more unwilling to forgive is a reflection of YOUR inner world and not the person that did something to you or the circumstance that happened. Let’s go a little deeper:-

Victim: First recorded in 1490-1500 from the Latin word victima sacrificial animal (Dictionary .com).

When we look at this we are not animals- nor helpless, nor are we being sacrificed. We may be at the time of atrocities, of unfairness. But, we clearly are still alive- have not died. The alteration of the meaning of this word has taken away power. Forgiveness is the soul cleansing act that reclaims it. To get to forgiveness is to trudge through the woundings, or that which separates you from your essence and connection with others. This is an arduous task, but one that sings hauntingly to those who are called to the path of the soul and the lessons born to experience in this life. We are meant to make mistakes- that’s how we learn. Sometimes, people get hurt. We get hurt. We have a choice. To stay here- or to see it, honour it, LEARN from it- then let it go. In doing so we can then reach  place of forgiveness. It doesn’t grow on trees. It’s not a pill we can pop and then ALL will be forgiven. It’s life’s challenge to rise above, learn and grow. And this takes courage.


Hero/ Heroine: A person noted for courageous acts, or a person considered as a role model for certain traits.

When these are applied to the inner journey of truth, otherwise known as the Hero/ Heroines Journey (of which we are all here for in differing ways) is of true empowerment that ultimately leads us to have faith and let go and trusting one meets challenges and gathers the tools/ knowledge/ understanding needed to face them. When we look at ancient mystical teachings, opposites exist and must. Where there is light, there is dark; where there is feminine there is masculine; where there is cool there is heat etc. When there is a problem- there is also presented a solution. It is up to us to be the clear vessel to enable the solution to be embodied and lived. It is not just about logic. This is a soul deep immersion that spreads throughout the body. The mind can get the hell out of the way and in fact can be used in a manner to aid in the embodiment, complete immersion on the path. It must. Before the sword of truth goes outward, it first must be turned onto self so that we can see our woundings, or fears that may express unhealthily outward toward others. The ‘sword’ I speak of can be thoughts. When a negative thought comes up about another, turn it around. Look at it. With compassion know that this comes from somewhere within you and find that place. Sit with it. This is an investigation, thank that thought as this is a way to understand and release a wound or fear within you that otherwise would not be touched and essentially left to fester and ooze its way out and into our life. We have doctors and nurses who investigate our external physical wounds, letting us know if there needs to be more treatment, more investigation…. but our inner wounds are our responsibility. We have the answer within that comes when the wound arises. That we can trust in, when we do the work of looking at the truth within, we can open to the solutions. We just have to be prepared to see what’s happening and let go into the process of life to go on the journey to release them when they present.

So, our openness, our freedom, our life force is up to us. The more we hold onto woundings or judgements or other negative aspects of our mind, the more we move away from our power. When we have the courage and compassion to step into the challenges presented to us in our lives, the more we create space to let go, to unravel the pain and anger the wounds etc have on us, and forgive- not so much for the other person, but for ourselves and our growth whilst in this body.

Sending so much love and empowerment to you as you step into 2021. Know that you aren’t alone- we are all here to help walk each other home.
Elise

Featured Image by Shelley Klammer

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Captivity of the Physical is Opening to the Freedom of the Soul

It’s Time to Surrender to What Is…

It is choice to be in captivity. No one, and nothing, can prevent the unravelling of truth from deeply within each person. There is a beautiful service that is happening all over the world- being on lock down. Having people confined within their homes…. what would happen if the individuals would start to look for that ‘something else’. TV isn’t filling the void. Food is simply making you feel crappy…. what is left? The beautiful combination of moving the body (form) with exercise and walking and connecting to the deeper parts within us that are screaming at us- our souls (the formless). This is the time we are finding ourselves in. These are the precious moments to learn more about ourselves, rather than not having time.

These are the times where we get to watch the priorities shift in our lives. What’s left when our job is taken away? What’s left when our relationship crumbles? What’s left when we can’t go on shopping sprees? What’s left when we can’t see our friends and loved ones because of the lock down? What’s left when we can’t make rent/ mortgage repayments? What’s left when we stop? Here’s what’s there, and always was there- we just didn’t have time or space to feel into it before…. but it’s the truth of human existence. It’s the connection to that something deeper within. It’s that ability to have the space to feel your spirit or Shakti or natural flow of energy running within you. AND the connection of that which has always been there- the soul or divinity coursing within you.

It’s the undeniable fact that life- as you knew it is dead. AND YET- you are still here…. is it possible we had it all wrong? Is there more to life than being born, making money, having kids, and dying?? Hell YES! And on that note, everything within that way of finding a made up ‘stability and safe way of living’ needs to be looked at as well. Why? Why get married? Why live the way we always have within our family? Why date the way I did before? Why date at all? Why be so like before this outbreak of corona virus when we can renew, find a new rhythm, go through a new season within our lives? Why not? What’s good enough for nature is good enough for ALL life within it. Humans are NO exception. We just tried to escape it and control natural forces, bringers of change. It’s time for the death of arrogance and playing god, and it’s time for surrendering to what is….

With Love,
Elise

Art by Alisha Lee Jeffers

The Dark Night of the Soul/Ego With Shiva- God of Destruction

Artist Jamie Samul

The Dark night of the soul or the Dark Night of the Ego, is a process we go through whilst on the evolutionary path to know truth, or the spiritual path. This morning, when I was in the midst of my Dark Night of the Ego, I could feel something that needed to be typed out. I knew another angle of this ‘Dark Night’ needed to come through. What came through was to explain it from the point of view of Shiva- God of Consciousness and Destruction from the Indian Pantheon and to use this ancient myth to directly apply it to our lives.

Shiva is known for his cosmic dance- a beautiful, fierce, grace filled destructive dance, in service to universal truth- destroying that which holds our consciousness back, or keeps us small in our lives. It is a blessing, this time in our lives, not a curse. It puts us on track, destroys or takes away those things that do not align.

Before rebirth in our lives, before creating from that ultimate soul connected place, Shiva dances his cosmic dance of the universe. He shows the areas of our lives that no longer fit and need to be cut out of our lives- to be more aligned to our soul and its imprint within us we were born with.

In this process he brings everything from your life up with dust and in a flurry. And then, as the storm subsides, that which no longer fits in your life anymore has turned to dust and floats gracefully to the floor. This is the moment of sinking to your knees, not bracing, nor holding onto that which is no longer in form in your life- or no longer animated in energy. It is dead. But with this awareness of the cosmic dance, comes the wisdom that this isn’t happening ‘to you’, it is happening ‘for you’ (Robert O’hotto). This is a time when the opportunity to see the destruction as a way to grow through, to be both witness and participant in your life, to overcome this with wisdom of yourself instead of victimhood mentality, or thinking ‘this is the way it is’. No, this is transformation. This shit is real.

This dance is the destruction from the heights of soul alignment- so high it is aligned with God, to consciousness itself. Some things remain to be picked up in the settling dust, and some things have simply dissolved into that dust- where there is nothing left for your soul, and for this to remain would simply hurt yourself and others involved. You know this time because the whole energetic system within your body shifts away from this person, place or thing. It is as if it has died- at least energetically. And you can still be open and loving, not blocking and protecting. It’s just time, and you know it. It’s just time… This is the call of the soul. All that is needed is a heart felt ‘yes’. The cosmic dance takes care of the rest. Boom- Job gone.

Boom- relationship gone.

Boom- money gone.

Boom- death in the family.

Boom- car gone.

What is left? Where does one look? Within. And look to the sacred, the mystical truths, because THAT is all that is left…. That’s where we look. Broken, honest, humbled, prepared to start again…. Integrity paths the way. No longer searching or striving, but listening, flowing and trusting. Vulnerable and powerful, accepting all of your strengths and weaknesses and everything that makes you unique on this path we call life. We sit in this and trust.

This is the destruction within your life for the highest good during this time. When Shiva dances- he dances with the rhythm of the universe and WITH the encryption of your soul. And when this beats through every layer within you- and every layer outside of you in your life around you as you go about your day, know that you are not alone. Know that you are stepping into your aligned life that you have been waiting and praying for, and that others are doing the same. Let’s help to walk each other home.

To the truth in you, the truth in me and the alignment of the truth in it All…

“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their own soul. One becomes enlightened by making the darkness conscious.”
Carl Gustav Jung

Featured art- “The Dark Night of the Soul” by Jamie Samul.

Enough is Enough

It breaks me. It makes me sink to my knees perplexed at how we have managed to end up here. In this place where it is a rarity to collectively feel relaxed, happy and content. Where we don’t say the words, ‘It’s just the way it is. What do you do?’ Do? DO?

I’m not buying it any longer. Stay on your lounge eating potato chips while the world around you slowly dies. Stay glued to the TV while you numb yourself from thoughts about the stresses of the days work. Stay looking at the next holiday so you can escape this madness for a while- maybe you can pay it off? Maybe you’ll get a nasty credit card bill that only adds to your stress when you return. Return. RETURN!

Return, that’s it. If you stay glued to this cycle then you won’t know what else life can offer…. and there IS SO MUCH MORE. But it takes guts. It takes change. It takes not fucking throwing your life away on sedentary, numbing, melancholic things or practices. It takes challenging yourself to learn new things. It takes doing things just for yourself to enjoy. It takes stopping those thoughts of ‘I can’t, I have no time.’ What have you done? To have no time to live? What has happened to you? When did you stop fucking loving yourself??? Leading by example of how interesting and limitless life can be? Did you ever watch your parents or an adult having no time as a kid? Did it look like fun? Did it look like a good use of energy? Time to break free of this outdated pattern structure within us. Don’t worry, your family will still exist and love you. It’s time to consciously look at why we do the things we do, and take our sovereign power back.

I’m not writing this to get you to feel shame. I’m writing this to shake you up, shake you a little to let some of the truth seep in. You are in charge of your life. Not your kids, not your husband, not your job…. YOU. Take responsibility for this and make the change. You know WHAT needs to happen inside. YOU know what YOU uniquely love. Come back to YOU. Even if it’s rising 30 minutes before the house hold to do something just for you- yoga, a work out, meditation, drawing, writing… whatever it is. Give yourself the time. Like a long lost friend coming to town to see you- you’d create time for them, right? Well, do it for YOU! Daily! What do YOU NEED? You’re bloody well worth it. And your relationships will thrive the more you thrive.

It’s time to give back to Self. It’s time to create space. It’s time to stop looking outwards and start to make the changes to come back into our own power. For when we shift our internal world, the world around us shifts too. And you become a beacon of light, living by example of the fact it can be done. Change can happen and it’s worth it, even if it’s an internal shift. Pass on the torch. Be the change. I’m with you.

With love
Elise

Art by Babs Art Creations

Sacred Union For Radical Change

On my knees- heart open and spinning, tears in my eyes
Feeling so much….

I ask the energy I feel within and surrounding me:-
How can I serve from this place?
When all I have are my eyes, my hands, my voice, my body…
Something has to change!
I feel this is beyond me…
I surrender……

Infuse me with your grace….
Let me serve from this place.

So my ego cannot fathom the work that comes of our unity

Oh, let me surrender to this.

Let me birth this into the world…

Let me be humbled and reminded of my power in service

Let me serve from the highest place, from the deepest space of wisdom

Let divinity flow through and remove me from this:
Let my eyes be the eyes of divinity…..
Let my voice be the voice of divinity…
Let my hands be the hands of divinity….
Let my body be the body of divine love and grace….

I surrender this over. I open my channel- may you swirl your ancient wisdom

I ask for the courage to stand in truth.
Courage to Act on the inner knowings that tell me to ‘let go’.
Courage to allow sacredness to move how it wishes.
Courage to trust, stay open, supple and loving,
And serve from this place.  

For to stay in this world witnessing the lack of sacredness
And NOT step out of the way for the divine to flow through
Deeply hurts and is not living in my own truth-

To create space for a wave of radical change….

Author: Elise Heyward
Artist: Brenda Burke